Crisis

It was interesting to learn about the word crisis on my mission and it applies perfectly to where I am at right now in my life. crisis |ˈkrīsis|
noun ( pl. -ses |-ˌsēz|)
a time of intense difficulty, trouble, or danger : the current economic crisis | a family in crisis | a crisis of semiliteracy among high school graduates.
• a time when a difficult or important decision must be made : [as adj. ] a crisis point of history.
• the turning point of a disease when an important change takes place, indicating either recovery or death.
• the point in a play or story when a crucial conflict takes place, determining the outcome of the plot.

The main definition I had then related to a turning point or fork in the road. A point at which the continuance of a course is in question. We get to a point where our course seems to need alteration and our nature is often one of enjoying comfortable feelings and needing to alter course is often if not always uncomfortable.

Just a little more of my ranting and trying to settle my mind. I have ideas and they seem good, but nothing feels solid to me right now. To much shifting sand.

What Now? (Super Guy's Rant)

Well, as some may know I am preparing for my last semester at SUU. I only have one complication and that is to figure out what in the heck I am going to do after that. I am considering a few options, but none of them is overpowering and I hate the feeling I get when it comes to these points in my life. It is like going to Dairy Queen and wanting a blizzard but not having a favorite flavor. I find myself looking at the options and none seems to stand out, so I end up running around in circles and just wondering what I want. Our fast this sunday is for a better understanding of what to do. I am grateful to actually have a major and a good solid graduation outlook but beyond that I really don't know what is going to happen. Just so you have some idea of the options I am facing the main 2 branches are "get a job" or "grad school" each of those has several options as well so that is only the beginning. I am mostly covering my bases right now and hopefully by the time deadlines start showing up I will be ready to jump on them. I just remembered something else that is a little bit annoying about all this "You can be anything you want to be" that is just the problem people have told me that all my life, but that contains the problem in itself "want" that is the problem I don't "want" to be anything in particular. I have only been able to eliminate things that I don't want or things that I don't feel are the right decision for me. I had the opportunity to go through the seminary teaching classes this last year in institute and although it was something I had wanted it didn't quite feel like the path I am supposed to take so I got put back to square one in some ways. Well, I guess that does it for my freaking out.